One day, a first-class full-access world pass to globe-trotting ticket will be rendered mine. Today we void trot. I sit in the uncomfortable feeling of all things unresolved. I hate Twitter right now. Why is it so negative? I know,…

It seems that subscriptions have become ubiquitous today, from food services to mental health. There is a place in my heart where I had tried to keep working at a place I didn’t want to be in, but today I…

I am making progress, checking off boxes on a never-ending list. still no grasp on the description of my current disposition in reality. Worried about what the things that are missing, wrong, or just not right, hyper-focused actually. Optimize, rebel.,chaos,…

I read a post that said the true test of intelligence is getting exactly what you want. I think that must be it, the truth. All of the politics is just noise, are you bearing the fruits of your labor?…

That clichéd saying that hits so hard now that I am older: parents would always say, “It’s that damn phone,” and now, honestly, they were right. I am a true performer; I performed most of my life to get what…

American Psycho, a movie where Patrick Bateman plays the protagonist, is a perfect allegory for what I believe Western culture cultivates in those who are ambitious. I have been working in transportation for about three months now, and one of…

Short and Sweet, how it should be. This weekend was fun, and I haven’t stopped saying thank you to the universe for my experiences. My trip to New York City revitalized me, and the pool party connected me to the…

Third Person’s Point of View: Monster I saw myself become a monster, I saw myself become a man. I question my manhood all the time. I am nothing like the others (objectively), always saw that as less, but that is…

Who am I outside of my ego? Does ego death mean complete altruism? Enlightenment? I like to think that sometimes getting outside of your ego is good, it may help with not taking things personally, and also with stress and…

Amid growth: May 2025 This past Memorial Weekend, I BBQ’d for the first time! Like, actually, on a real grille with lots of people around, lowkey the coolest thing ever, in my dad era. The past few weeks have felt…